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Ian Cooper
Corson Bell’s biceps ached, and the back of his neck
was stiff. He had the leisure to admire the graceful shape of a seagull passing
overhead, head cranked and eye cocked to examine this oddity.
The arc of the St. Griselda bridge loomed on the
horizon.
Rolling onto his side, he continued on with a slow
and careful side-stroke.
The key to making his goal was patience.
His breathing was still good, and while there was
some burning in the arms and in the gut, his legs were very strong after
cycling through the spring and into the summer.
You don’t see too many other fifty-four year-old men
out here, he told himself.
Their wives won’t come with them, and they won’t let
them poor bastards out alone, either. That was his assessment.
They just sat in front of the TV, watching garbage
and keeping any thoughts they had to themselves.
Chilly as it was, the water was tolerable as long as
the day was sunny and the wind not too strong.
Today, the wind was from the south and thus perfect,
with the water flat and calm. With little or no wave action, he made good
progress.
The third corrugated steel breakwater loomed off of
his left shoulder. He went back into his own personal dog-paddle, which he had
studied and developed according to his unique needs. The trouble with the crawl
was that the swimmer had to put their face into the water, and the sheer
physical coordination required in breathing properly was the one thing he had
never been able to master.
Yeah.
I’m going to make it.
No
point in stopping now.
That’s
just letting yourself down, Buddy.
Forty metres more and that would be it. He slowed
up, resting between strokes, only the lower legs kicking around in big circles
like the screws on a ship. He’d never seen anyone do that before, but it worked
for Corson. When his knees gave a twinge, he would switch over to something
else…
This way he could at least see where he was going.
It wasn’t fast, but Corson was strong and he generally got where he wanted to
go.
Corson had everything from arthritis in his left
elbow, twinges in his knees first thing in the morning or when going up stairs,
and in winter, in a general sense, those twinges came more regularly.
His lower back problems stemmed from youthful
sporting injuries. A defiant exuberance and some natural male competitiveness was
a part of his make-up, but the cold water sucked a lot of pain out of the body
and at the same time natural buoyancy held him up.
It was good exercise for one who had once
contemplated life in a wheelchair, dependent upon the charity and goodwill of a
system that he had found ignorant and insensitive as soon as he came into
contact with it.
“You’ll
never walk again.”
“Fuck
you, doctor. When I want your opinion, I’ll beat it out of you."
Argh.
That
was no way to be.
They
were just trying to help you adjust to life in a wheelchair.
And
fuck them bastards too.
With careful breathing and lungs full of air, it
took little work to stay afloat. Corson had some skill in perception
management, as well as a cautious but accurate assessment of his own personal abilities,
which meant that he was now arriving…
“Ah.”
He dropped his feet to the rippled sand. Corson
stood in about four feet of crystalline Lake Huron water, the beach a hundred
feet off to his left. He had some pain, but no worse than when he was doing
nothing—laying in bed a little too long in the morning would do the same thing.
“Oh, wow. Huh.”
There was no reason to hurry. He could see his stuff
up the beach and there was no one around.
Breathing heavily, and staggering more than once
when he arrived at the band of rounded rocks at the water’s edge, Corson used
his hands like a squeegee, pushing back and squeezing the excess water out of
his limited hair.
His shoes, towel and glasses, his wallet and keys,
were a full three hundred metres up the beach to the east of his landing.
He had no idea of how long it had taken to swim
three hundred metres, and cared even less.
Corson picked his way along the shore in water
ranging from ankle to shin-deep, the sun warming him up and drying him off as
he went.
Yeah,
man, this was eminently worth it.
There were a couple of small families with beach
blankets, and small children playing at the water’s edge with brightly-coloured
plastic pails and shovels. This water was much warmer, warmed by the sun and
trapped to some extent by the breakwaters protruding into the lake twenty or
thirty metres in some cases.
He nodded politely at eye contact when it came, and
ignored the rest as they would probably wish.
Corson came to his place, and picked up the towel,
which covered his shoes and personal items.
There was no one right near him. He had a kind of
privacy, or at least no one right there, in his face. A further hundred yards
east, up the beach, the city provided lifeguards and supervision as well as
volleyball nets and a small concession stand. There might have been a hundred
people on that short stretch, about two hundred metres overall.
To the west, stretching for about a kilometre, it
was still a public beach, with a line of dunes behind it and a long parking
lot.
It was a safe and friendly place. It was a small
town, and by the standards of other places, it might appear almost deserted,
even neglected by the local inhabitants, perhaps not truly appreciating the
jewel this beach represented.
Corson, a single man in his fifties, rubbed the
towel around his face, eyes and upper body, mostly, and then dried his hands.
It was a warm enough day and after cycling ten kilometres, his body core
temperature would be nicely lowered.
The ride home would be no real trouble.
He pulled a smoke out of the pack and lit it up,
with the towel around his neck.
Life was okay sometimes, he had to admit that.
His heart-rate was almost back to normal already,
and his breathing was much-improved compared to how it had been at the end of a
long, cold, and dark winter.
The only problem with late June, when the days were
incredibly long and the nights were short, warm and wonderfully inviting to the
more adventurous, was that it meant spring was over. Summer would never be long
enough and then it would be late September. Spirits tended to ebb on
contemplating another winter, and that was that—it was over.
Corson stood at the water’s edge, watching the young
people taking sailing lessons a kilometre out.
He’d taken sailing lessons himself, at about
fourteen years of age.
High voices and nervous giggling came from somewhere
behind him.
Exhaling a long jet of pale smoke, he turned to be
confronted by a gaggle of Japanese schoolgirls, by the looks of them.
His mouth opened and closed. It must be a bus tour
or something.
They must have parked over the hill and came down
his little trail. He liked to keep an eye on his bike, and of course he had a
couple of water bottles clipped on there too.
He grinned as they stared at him in a kind of awe.
They were two feet higher than him, up the sloping sand, but the impression he
conveyed must have been completely fascinating.
Corson tended to forget that he was almost
six-foot-six tall. He was all tanned up, slimmer now that he had lost
twenty-two and a half pounds by dint of pure sacrifice and hard effort. He didn’t
take it the wrong way, they were just tourists. But the fact was that he’d cut
out junk food for six months or a year or so, and was only drinking ten or
twelve beers a month.
Hmn. Nice ladies.
It was kind of flattering, actually. Corson had seen
some guy at the mall who had to be all of six-foot nine, towering above him by
easily three or four inches. When that happened it was always humbling to
realize that it was humiliating in
some inexpressible fashion to be short.
And it made him wonder, if he abused his own size, in any measurable way, in
his dealings with his fellow human beings.
If a person had an advantage, then of course they
would use it.
His question was whether he had abused it.
Corson was the philosophical sort.
One girl said something and he realized she had just
snapped a cell-phone picture of him. Corson thoughtfully chucked the cigarette well off to one side, so it wouldn't show in the pictures.
He smiled, and pulled the towel from his shoulders.
“Hi, ladies. Welcome to Canada. I must say, you’re all
looking very lovely today.”
Another one said something and lifted her
camera-phone.
Corson held up a hand and then tossed the green
terrycloth towel well away, onto the dry gravel-bar underfoot.
He took a classic David pose, all ready to sling a big rock at Goliath, and they tittered and giggled, and then they were all doing it. Swimming in shorts was better for personal modesty than a banana-suit. He found the slight chub this attention instilled a bit of a personal revelation but, oh, well.
Corson changed over into a shot-putter’s stance, and
then did his best Bruce Lee impersonation, fists clenched in front of his
midriff, chin down and glaring theatrically at the girls, with his wiry frame
bulging and rippling, cut with sharp tendon lines and bulging veins in the
forearms and all over the backs of his hands.
The killer was when he turned, grinned at them over
his shoulder and with his knees cocked as if frozen in the sprinting position,
twitched his butt-cheeks at them, first the right and then the left.
He held a classic left arm bicep display as he did
it, to appreciative comments from the young women, all of them madly snapping
away. They were checking the resulting shots and then commenting amongst each
other in what he was pretty sure was Japanese. They seemed to cover their
mouths a lot and it turned out Japanese girls could actually blush.
But then, so could Corson, and he did, too.
“Ha-ha!”
They laughed right back.
He relaxed for a second, enjoying the moment and the
laughs along with them.
Surely one of them must speak English. They all had
shoulder bags, some wore ball caps and one or two wore sunglasses. It was the
school uniform that was a bit off in terms of beach wear.
A small one darted over and stood beside him,
looking up with her mouth wide open in sheer amazement.
She was chattering
away, a mile a minute.
She was on his left side.
With exaggerated care, Corson reached around behind
her. He took her left shoulder in his big left hand, spanning eleven and an eighth inches
when spread wide, and her right shoulder in his right hand, spanning ten and
three-quarter inches. Corson was not the most symmetrical of men. He leaned in and
faced the cameras as they snapped and shouted and giggled.
She waved happily and bounced up and down. Finally, he
let her go. She snapped a quick picture up at him from her close angle and then
stood off while another two came over and took her place.
Corson laughed at their audacity. He pulled them in
close, one on each side. One of their friends ran up and took a camera, a real
one this time, from the girl on his right. She stood in front, twenty feet
away, and carefully framed the shot as Corson took a good breath, extended his
spine to its full length, feeling a couple of pops and snaps down low as he
did. He went all rigid and puffed out all of his muscles, a ludicrous concept
considering his actual skinny frame, but it was all in good fun.
What the hell. He was in okay shape, or so he
thought. What it might look like from their perspective was a different thing
entirely.
It was all part of the entertainment around here,
and ludicrous by anyone’s standards.
It was all part of the act.
His belly was flat and his face calm, composed and
confident, as the girl took a couple of exposures. Then she had to have her
turn.
“So it’s like that, eh?”
With the girl squealing, Corson bent quickly and
scooped her up. It was the me-Tarzan, you-Jane thing.
He looked seriously at the line-up of girls, and she
laughed and giggled and said things as her arm came around behind his neck.
They snapped and pointed and called encouragement to
their friend as Corson grinned down into her eyes.
It was no big deal. She couldn’ have weighed over a
hundred pounds. A bundle of shingles, no more, and a lot nicer-looking. She
smelled okay too.
Finally, he put her down.
“No, no! Ladies! Puh-lease.”
He waved off two more, and bent to pick up his
towel. Chuckling, he found he was a little out of breath after all.
All that excitement, he thought.
He moved up towards where his shoes and wallet were,
and the group sort of reoriented itself to watch his passing. They were still
taking pictures.
Corson was a bit relieved that he couldn’t
understand what they were saying, and at the same time, the tone and the
hilarity sort of invited speculation.
“Thank you sir!”
“Thank you!”
“Bye, now!”
“We love Canada!”
He looked a taller one in the eye.
“I’m beginning to suspect that some of you guys might
speak English after all.”
She nodded, and put her hand over her mouth,
giggling still.
His look and the sudden snort he made sort of said
it all, didn’t it? He gave her her own personal wave goodbye.
“Bye girls.”
Might as well make the best of it, Corson thought,
as he caught the eye of an older woman. She had her own camera and was
shepherding the group up another trail a little further up the beach.
He waved goodbye and then pulled his ball cap on to
keep the sun out of his eyes.
The last of them were just disappearing over the
brow of the hill.
One of the girls had forgotten her bag. It was right
there on the dry gravel-bar.
He had just picked it up and was scuttling up the
hot sand towards the tree line when a sweet young thing came back down the
path.
He gave it to her and she bobbed her head and spoke.
Corson’s eyes met hers and then she pressed
something white into his hand. This one apparently didn’t speak English. Whatever
she said sounded nice enough.
It was like butterflies walking around on your
balls, quite stirring in its effect.
Turning, off she went back up the trail.
He watched her go. Corson was in no hurry today, or
any day, really.
They were pretty darned cute, in those plaid skirts,
with the white blouses and stockings and black velvet shoes with the square
silver buckles on them.
He reckoned he could eat a whole bowlful of them.
Taking another look, he saw she had given him a free
ticket to some sort of musical performance. They were from a city he had never
heard of, but it was a symphony orchestra and the performance was Sunday
evening at the public library.
Hmn.
Backstage pass, meet and greet. Wine and cheese.
That one might be worth checking out.
***
“A schoolgirl uniform fetish is a sexual
fetish in which someone derives sexual pleasure from
viewing others dressed in the typical uniform of a schoolgirl (with either a
school skirt or
culottes,) or from themselves dressing in that manner. The schoolgirl uniform fetish is
common in both Japanese and
Western pornography, prostitution, and other forms of adult entertainment,
making it one of the most widespread clothing-oriented fetishes worldwide.”
“The schoolgirl image may appeal to women because it
allows them to project a more youthful, innocent, or virginal image. These same
reasons can explain part of the look's appeal to males as well. It may also
have a less sexual aspect of nostalgia, recalling memories of a simpler time in
one's life. Indeed, fetishes often start to develop at puberty, when for males
schoolgirls often feature as objects of desire which (particularly where men
attended all-boys schools) were seemingly unattainable. Often the contrast of a
fully developed woman in a 'childlike' role is appealing, in the same
manner as other forms of sexual role-playing.”
“In practice, the schoolgirl role is usually one
which is sexually compliant or playfully ‘naughty’ and submissive, while the
schoolgirl's partner plays an adult authority figure such as a parent, teacher,
or stern principal. This can include fantasies or re-enactments of childhood
events including corporal punishments such as spanking, school canings, or
paddling, etc.”
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